Dear Diary...
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Okie....here you just post your feelings at a certain day and in a certain moment of time...Just like writing a normal diary...Feel free to be as expressive as possible...But pls do censor your profanities...after all this is an open forum for all ages...
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alright then, i shall refrain from any vulgarities. ok here goes
today was a boring day as usual, woke up after a meagre 3 hours of sleep, thank you games! ok, so tomorrow is going to be friday.. and its going to be a 3 day weekend because monday is labour day! nothing great but.. one day less of school.. -
today i opened my eyes and felt terrible. "___!", i screamed at the top of my voice. my roommate kris ran in looking worried.
"what the ___ in the name of ____ _____ _____ just happened? are you okay?"
"what the ___ do you think you ___ _____?" i yelled back. "of ____ course not!"
and then i went back to bed. -
no rudeness
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i dun have the habit of keeping a diary. N i prefer keeping my personal tots to myself. But when i do feel like expressing it out, i prefer to use unconventional methods to do so.
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unconventional methods???like...???Originally posted by Gackt247:i dun have the habit of keeping a diary. N i prefer keeping my personal tots to myself. But when i do feel like expressing it out, i prefer to use unconventional methods to do so. -
no sharing
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Okie here goes...I just tot i contribute an entry myself...
Dear Diary,
Got threatened by my parents today....They said,"Break up or I'll never pay for your living anymore!!!" I made up my mind...All these while, i've always obeyed them...Listened to their every word, their hearts' desires, their expectations...And i've never failed once...But i've always disappointed them cause i was never good enough fof them...But this time, worth it or not, i'm going to go against them..cause it's my right to choose who i want to be with in life...my feelings is human's not a robot's....i'm not a robot...
I'll do whatever it takes to live on in Singapore...Whatever it takes to survive...Whether it's worth it to sacrifice all these for a guy who might not be with me forever...that's another problem...I'm going to take this as a first step to my own independence...besides, it's all a matter of time to change my parent's views and to also prove that i can take responsibilities of my own life, my own charts...and i can make decisions, that no matter how ugly it will turn out, i'll never regret...I know it'll definitely be suffering...as i've always lived like a little princess with everything provided with just a few clicks on the buttons of an atm machine...It's time to learn to grow my own wings and charter my own flight...I'll never know what a turn life would be...and that maybe..it'll be more fun than what i have had now... -
why not???Originally posted by SBS9828X:no sharing 
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Dear Diary,
I skipped class 2day..cos yesterday 2 girls bictch & nag at me so I dont want see them 2day. I dl GUNZ n its update file using my uni comp..about 150mb..cos internet is free. I hope they dont find out that Im abusing the system.
After that I went shopping mall. I went to a gift shop to buy a small ultraman toy. It cost $1. Actually I wanted meet the cashier girl. She is quite chio, tall, and slender. Its my second time to meet her after...1 month? Actually I vowed to myself that I will get her name the 2nd time..but it slipped my mind. Anyway, we have a small chat (cos many ppl in the shop) and I found out which uni she went. Hopefully I can meet her again..maybe tomorrow and get her number -
Good luckOriginally posted by alexkusu:Dear Diary,
I skipped class 2day..cos yesterday 2 girls bictch & nag at me so I dont want see them 2day. I dl GUNZ n its update file using my uni comp..about 150mb..cos internet is free. I hope they dont find out that Im abusing the system.
After that I went shopping mall. I went to a gift shop to buy a small ultraman toy. It cost $1. Actually I wanted meet the cashier girl. She is quite chio, tall, and slender. Its my second time to meet her after...1 month? Actually I vowed to myself that I will get her name the 2nd time..but it slipped my mind. Anyway, we have a small chat (cos many ppl in the shop) and I found out which uni she went. Hopefully I can meet her again..maybe tomorrow and get her number -
dear diary,
today mi almost kanna bitten by a mad dog at 9pm but fortunately its killed before it harm mi...
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For me to know n for u to find out.Originally posted by Pr|nCeSsNeZz:unconventional methods???like...???
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Hmm.. i hope u have made a right choice coz things in this world arent tt simple, carefree an innocent as u think it is. Independence isn't necessarily a good thing for the responsibilities that come with it may juz be too daunting. However, time can change the outcome. So before jumping on a conclusion, probably u would want to think abt when is the ideal time for u fly. Coz i wouldnt want u fall even before u know how to flap ur wings. Be objective and rational with ur thoughts n not let emotions dictate ur decisions.Originally posted by Pr|nCeSsNeZz:Okie here goes...I just tot i contribute an entry myself...
Dear Diary,
Got threatened by my parents today....They said,"Break up or I'll never pay for your living anymore!!!" I made up my mind...All these while, i've always obeyed them...Listened to their every word, their hearts' desires, their expectations...And i've never failed once...But i've always disappointed them cause i was never good enough fof them...But this time, worth it or not, i'm going to go against them..cause it's my right to choose who i want to be with in life...my feelings is human's not a robot's....i'm not a robot...
I'll do whatever it takes to live on in Singapore...Whatever it takes to survive...Whether it's worth it to sacrifice all these for a guy who might not be with me forever...that's another problem...I'm going to take this as a first step to my own independence...besides, it's all a matter of time to change my parent's views and to also prove that i can take responsibilities of my own life, my own charts...and i can make decisions, that no matter how ugly it will turn out, i'll never regret...I know it'll definitely be suffering...as i've always lived like a little princess with everything provided with just a few clicks on the buttons of an atm machine...It's time to learn to grow my own wings and charter my own flight...I'll never know what a turn life would be...and that maybe..it'll be more fun than what i have had now...
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Huh???Originally posted by carpe diem jur:dear diary,
today mi almost kanna bitten by a mad dog at 9pm but fortunately its killed before it harm mi... 
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hahar !! some mad dog always anyhow bark and bites...Originally posted by Gackt247:Huh??? -
Ok.. i have this feeling tt statement had a metaphoric meaning to it. Ok.. i think i get it.Originally posted by carpe diem jur:hahar !! some mad dog always anyhow bark and bites... -
Originally posted by Gackt247:Ok.. i have this feeling tt statement had a metaphoric meaning to it. Ok.. i think i get it.
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dear diary...
I tried to catch some sleep but some stuffs have been gg thru my mind... I have my share of unfairness and back-stabbers, but for goodness sake, I have never never b!tch about someone else's life in my whole lifetym... but for today, my visions are clearer knowing that there are another three acquaintance in my life joining in my "most-hated" group of people which i'd condemned for life... i dont care if they dies tml... and I hope they are looking forward to a miserable life ahead of them...
**I am not directing at anyone, dun b sensitive, though u guys wil be reading on... If u are treating this oni as in a forumies reader's position, i welcome u to read or browse around... No offence to all, coz i'd gladly appreciate it when I can enjoy abit of straight-forwardness in my personal point of view since this thread is about "Dear Diary", not like I have to hide anything or what...
No one can judge if my life is better than theirs, and I never always think that mine is, everyone has a spectacular life whether in past present or future, but to the least I am enjoying life and learning as much as i want to... then again, i have been thinking, what makes some people think that they have the right to judge and assume that their perception of mi is absolutely correct and it is their right to b!tch around about what is untrue??!
To mi, it is not really a problem when people tends to expect and assumes, but what for tek things so seriously since it's never a matter of life and death??! or would they die quit being overly 'concern' if other people are not taught to live the same way they did or different upbringing?? People such as V in sch, his know-it-all attitute, finds great joy in wasting his life away spreading untrue rumours about another person's life... I dont have a problem with who he's gonna b!tch about, but I have a problem with him mentioning names !!!!
C'mon la, who cares about how others live their life, survive thru the worse or if they ever survive!?? Unless they are ur immediate family members, extremely close friends who are honestly sincere and they shower care and concern for u becoz they are a part of u... I'd prefer to hang around people close to my heart than having a freaking lot of friends who will stab u in the front anytym... I am not being choosy or stereotyping about my circle of friends, but it depends who will walk out on mi first...
I tries my best to treats people the way I want to be treated back, though I may make afew mistakes every now, being insensitive and not understanding enuff, but I cant be bothered to lie... I do tek certain precautions when need be... Afterall, life is unfair enuff, worse off to start imposing certain rules to another human being juz like ourself -- but it have never come across my mind that there is a perfect stranger who deserves to be treated indifferently...
It is really strange, why would acquaintance start interferring ur lifestyle with bad intentions?? Yes, strange people are all around, life is definitely difficult for all, but these people oni makes it worse by creating unnecessary troubles to others which they thinks is all worthwhile to destroy another human being's life as much as possible !! They gain nothing beneficial to themselves in the end and they dont even know why the need to do such things.... Doesnt make sense right??
As far as life is going to get mi down, I am getting better each day... If u gotta continue thinking this world is shitty, it wil oni reward u with more shit than ever !! I am living my life focusing on the right things, not on the 'right' people... what will always be important to mi is NOT how life is going to turn out to be for mi, (I dont lke to assume or 'predict', coz it is as gud as lying and deceiving myself), it is my perception of my life and how I control my feelings... Almost nothing feels better than an HONEST life with CLEAR CONSCIENCE !!
Jur
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nice entry, the people here are generally worse, and much much more materialistic.. they wont walk out on you, the sprint
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Can simplify abit mah???Originally posted by carpe diem jur:dear diary...
I tried to catch some sleep but some stuffs have been gg thru my mind... I have my share of unfairness and back-stabbers, but for goodness sake, I have never never b!tch about someone else's life in my whole lifetym... but for today, my visions are clearer knowing that there are another three acquaintance in my life joining in my "most-hated" group of people which i'd condemned for life... i dont care if they dies tml... and I hope they are looking forward to a miserable life ahead of them...
**I am not directing at anyone, dun b sensitive, though u guys wil be reading on... If u are treating this oni as in a forumies reader's position, i welcome u to read or browse around... No offence to all, coz i'd gladly appreciate it when I can enjoy abit of straight-forwardness in my personal point of view since this thread is about "Dear Diary", not like I have to hide anything or what...
No one can judge if my life is better than theirs, and I never always think that mine is, everyone has a spectacular life whether in past present or future, but to the least I am enjoying life and learning as much as i want to... then again, i have been thinking, what makes some people think that they have the right to judge and assume that their perception of mi is absolutely correct and it is their right to b!tch around about what is untrue??!
To mi, it is not really a problem when people tends to expect and assumes, but what for tek things so seriously since it's never a matter of life and death??! or would they die quit being overly 'concern' if other people are not taught to live the same way they did or different upbringing?? People such as V in sch, his know-it-all attitute, finds great joy in wasting his life away spreading untrue rumours about another person's life... I dont have a problem with who he's gonna b!tch about, but I have a problem with him mentioning names !!!!
C'mon la, who cares about how others live their life, survive thru the worse or if they ever survive!?? Unless they are ur immediate family members, extremely close friends who are honestly sincere and they shower care and concern for u becoz they are a part of u... I'd prefer to hang around people close to my heart than having a freaking lot of friends who will stab u in the front anytym... I am not being choosy or stereotyping about my circle of friends, but it depends who will walk out on mi first...
I tries my best to treats people the way I want to be treated back, though I may make afew mistakes every now, being insensitive and not understanding enuff, but I cant be bothered to lie... I do tek certain precautions when need be... Afterall, life is unfair enuff, worse off to start imposing certain rules to another human being juz like ourself -- but it have never come across my mind that there is a perfect stranger who deserves to be treated indifferently...
It is really strange, why would acquaintance start interferring ur lifestyle with bad intentions?? Yes, strange people are all around, life is definitely difficult for all, but these people oni makes it worse by creating unnecessary troubles to others which they thinks is all worthwhile to destroy another human being's life as much as possible !! They gain nothing beneficial to themselves in the end and they dont even know why the need to do such things.... Doesnt make sense right??
As far as life is going to get mi down, I am getting better each day... If u gotta continue thinking this world is shitty, it wil oni reward u with more shit than ever !! I am living my life focusing on the right things, not on the 'right' people... what will always be important to mi is NOT how life is going to turn out to be for mi, (I dont lke to assume or 'predict', coz it is as gud as lying and deceiving myself), it is my perception of my life and how I control my feelings... Almost nothing feels better than an HONEST life with CLEAR CONSCIENCE !!
Jur
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dear diary im tired and need sleep and need to study but have to meet someone for lunch.
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ooh... u not heavier on the left side liao arh... hahar !! Jur's in my last word in my nick leh... Carpe Diem Jur...Originally posted by dcx:Can simplify abit mah???
What's Jur?
or u too used to call mi palapi liao... -_-"
psss.. Jur is my real name la... dun tel anybody !! LoLx... -
I get what u mean... but one thing I've learnt is, "Before you criticize someone you should walk a mile in their shoes.... This way, you're a mile away when you criticize them and you have their shoes."Originally posted by coffeeortea:nice entry, the people here are generally worse, and much much more materialistic.. they wont walk out on you, the sprint -
Dear Diary...
I'm sure I gotta take a chance to mit up with *him as long I'm given a chance next week... Though should haf be completing my project and take it as a nice lil' reward for my eyes to see someone I'd really love... I find it so impossible to love someone so much like him, and it kinda makes mi feel that I could never love another or as willing to give as much as I am now...
For example, I have always been so excited to be beside him, for no reason at all... Even if it was oni for a second or two, I would feel extremely overjoyed for an entire day... I know it isnt an infatuation or anything like dat... I have been thru so many guys whom I took a liking for (or love??), he's just not like another being in this world...
the thing about him that makes him so different from any other guys who have really liked mi is that he doesnÂ’t seem to demand anything emotionally, at all... Though there is a particular reson behind this, and I'm extremely afraid of losing freedom. and esp privacy means alot to mi...Somehow it just feels that I do not haf that 'gf' qualities, not that I am pick-mi-up-on-the-street kinda girl, I'm just soooo afraid of commitments... Dats also another reason why I can never go back to church... One day, perhaps, I might change...
I can, and am willing to, asking myself to give in as long it is for his gud... As for did he ever felt anything for mi, he probably does, initially, but I think maybe because I love him so much to the extend IÂ’m giving him more then he would have need (mind I used the word "need", maybe its just a "want" in his life, but saying a "need" makes mi feel beter)...
I loved his company for all I know, he never makes mi feel bored regardless whatever he does... people said "the prob with men is their need to possess a women", he doesnt behaves that way neither does he makes a woman feel tied-up or trapped... See the point, he is really a unique individual, I really cant imagine there is such a gem stil existing in this world...
He is ever so busy and I didnt seem to mind as much... It feels very nice when he'd drop mi a lil' surprise now and then, and that's what kept mi going these few months when tyms are hard... I just cant explain all the emotions he've made mi feel, but all I can say is this guy makes mi feel as if I cant never get enuff of him...
Jur